Hai, Im back. Semua kisah-kisah dulu dah habis. What i mean is "him" . No more Asyraaf in my life. No more. Hes gone. Yes, I was damn sad cus he left me when I was there. When I had no idea how to chase him back as him and everyones knew, he is my best of the best and hes my everything..I repeated, EVERYTHING. But ALLAH knews better than anyone else. Im trying hard to be realistic and put my best effort for letting all the pain and those memories away from my thoughts. Alhamdulillah...I am now can live by my own real life as well as before I knew him. Im proud of myself for being this though even after being through all over this ALONE. With no one besides me and give me a support. No, actually i got so many advices and warm support from friends and family but as the entire world knew, Im far away from them. Physically im still away from them. I cant really feel their supports. Its like when you are trying to stand up with one leg is having fracture while theres no cruthces or even wheelchair surrounds you and suddenly you realizes that you still need to stand and wake up to continue your daily life routines. Its hurt. Yeah, its damn hurt.I got no way to run. At the moment I decided to let him go away from my life, I was like...."Erna, you need to do this,you go! you go! speak out whatever things inside your mind". And with no one beside me, I gain all my strengths and text him. Im waiting for his reply, if he could ever text me for atleast a single text but after 10mins....20mins....30mins.....and after so many hours he still didnt reply my text.So, i gave up and consider that he WILL NEVER reply.That was my last text to him..to the only man I have ever love in life..Asyraaf.
Soon after, for that whole night I cant sleep properly, I keep on thinking about him. About why and why he left me for no reason after promising me a lot before i went to India. Maybe theres a reason FOR HIM about why he left me. I cant put a blame on him. Hes a nice person. A really nice person for me. I am still admit this facts. So...people out there! I too had a love story :) Even its not last as a happy ending, but im still can share to everyone cus im proud of me! We have been through a lot of happy and sad life journey together but end up with tragedy and I still can be happy for his new life,with a new girl. He deserves better. He really do.
To Asyraaf and his new girlfie :
I wish you guys can build a very nice relationship and cherish it together with a very nice colour of day by day. Be good to each other. Im not that able to make him happy as you can. So for you girl, dont repeat the same mistake as i did ! No ! Please no.. Do take care of him and be the best as you can. I dont think so you will read this but its okay as long as ive already expressed whatever i felt. No worries, I wont ever exist between you guys. Theres no need for me cus I knew well my position. Be happy my dear..
Sincere,
Erna.
