Again?

Adakah semalam dan harini segalanya akan jadi seperti dulu? Saat-saat genting antara aku dan dia. Aku rindu dia aku sayang dia tapi maaf, kau menipu aku dan kau menyiksa aku! Aku takkan lembut

Impossible

How can someone like you come into my life and knock the heart box? Erghhh Sedih!

"Tell them I was happy and my heart was broken"
Yes,im currently listening to this song. Jyeahhh.
Actually theres no reason why im updating my blogspot. I got no works to do since it was my sem break. And its only 5days left before im going back to Cheras.
Damn on it! Cheras is super boring. I hate Cheras.
I need friends who can always be by my side and understands me.
I couldnt find it til now.
Kalau ada pun dah xde. He's been stoled by someone but yeah, I dont give a damn for now.

Tired of presuading,
:)

You fail in doing this.

I am sorry for those words which might hurts you. As for you know what are my actually reason for doing this is because I dont want you to be like what I really hates. You know what it is. Please put an effort on avoid it! Please! Or else our relation will be worst than ever. For the many times,Im asking and begging for your coorperation :( . Why doing this to me? Please fullfil what am I hopping from you. Its not a big matter,but you are the one who make it WORST!

Siapa Si Shah Alam.

Siapa lah agaknya yang selalu view blogspot aku dari Shah Alam ye? Nak sangat tahu. Anyway terima kasih sebab sudi :) Peace!!

Lupa nak bagitau, semalam jumpa Asyraaf kat Mid Valley. Dengan family lahh. Papa belanja dia kasut and baju ZARA. Nak tengok dia pakai bila pergi cameron nanti hihi. Rindu dia sangat-2 sayang dia sangat-2 !
Bye Asyraaf <3

Terlampau kecewa

Aku terlampau lampau kecewa dengan apa yang jadi.
10 bulan couple, apa akhirnya? Gaduh besar sampai melibatkan keluarga aku.
Mama xnak cakap dengan aku. Terima kasih Asyraaf :')
Aku xfaham kenapa semua ni jadi.Aku tengah final,xboleh nak lembut sikit ke?
Lepas apa jadi,Asyraaf sikit pun xde nak text aku.
Ini ke yang kau cakap sayang? Cinta?

Dugaan.

Maaf !

Tolong maafkan aku,Asyraaf?
Aku minta maaf yang tersangat-sangat kat kau sebab aku tahu sekarang perangai aku teruk.
Aku layan kau macam sampah!
Tapi semua ni punca dari kau juga,jadi tolong? Faham aku ! 5 minit pun jadi..

Ya Allah..

Sumpah aku terharu sangat bila kawan-2 masih lagi beri aku hadiah walaupun hari kejadian aku dah 2 hari berlalu. Sekarang dah jadi "belated" tapi masih mereka xjemu wish dan beri hadiah.
Ceritanya tadi,Jessica dan Kausaliyah keluar..katanya nak pergi The Mines.malam diorang balik tiba-2 aku dapat besar! Sejambak macam Jenang bagi aku semalam.Ya Allah...Sumpah aku terharu!

Eh lupa nak cerita pasal semalam,
Jenang bawa aku pergi Menara Tinjau,Ampang.
He damn nice and cool.Kalau masa boleh undur memang aku nak sangat patah balik.
Dia bagi aku bunga besar dan cincin.Katanya ini menandakan kita orang dah bertunang.
Aku terharu..aku xsangka :')
Terima Kasih!!

Selamat Hari Jadi

Semalam aku keluar dengan keluarga tersayang.Sambut di MidValley Megamall. Mula-2 memang rasa macam hari yang sangat menyakitkan hati sebab banyak benda yang jadi. Tibanya Asyraaf petang tu merubat segalanya.Hati aku kembali ceria seperti biasa.Makan di Chili's :). Asyraaf order "Montery Chicken" seronoknya tengok dia makan.Rasa sayang yang amat mendalam kat dia.Balik tu dia hantar.Sampai hostel,kawan-2 sambut.Terharunya bila KAK MARLINA dan ABANG CHAM bagi bunga sejambak dan teddy bear.Sumpah memang aku tak sangka masa tu :) . Masa tu hati aku rasa macam xseronok nak balik hostel sebab AIN xada dan xrasa nak balik masa tu.Tapi lepas apa jadi,aku rasa okay balik. Terima kasih kawan sekalian.

8.Nov.2011.

Harini kelas macam biasa.Mula-2 kelas Physiology lepastu rehat.Masa rehat aku nak pergi ikut diorang pergi Jusco tapi....

"KAU JANGAN IKUT!" kata NADIA. Sedihnya bukan main lagi sebab aku memang tak faham kenapa xbagi aku ikut.Xlama tu AIMAN and AFIQ masuk kelas. Dia teman aku pergi Jusco.

Balik je kelas satu kelas nyanyi happy birthday kat aku(Thanks to PAVITRA)dan NADIA,FAIZ,SEAN,IEYZA,TASHA datang kat aku bagi aku hadiah,eh xlupa juga! Kepada NITHYA sebab bagi aku gula-2.

Gaduh sikit dengan Asyraaf harini, Entah kenapa dia "ruins" my mood.Tapi malam ni dah janji nak jumpa dia.

BODOH -..- !!!

N9 vs Terengganu

Harini hantar diorang pergi stadium. Memang meriah gila ! ahahaha aku update status pasal bola and aku mention N9 yang menang. Sekarang Terenggangu dah kalah. Penyu dah menetas hahaa. Whats next? :) Lainkali mulut jangan banyak bunyi.

-I miss Baby Asyraaf :'(. 3Hari dah berlalu tanpa dia.Fuck it-

Penyesalan yang tiada guna.

Betul kata orang, "Terlajak perahu boleh diundur,terlajak kata buruk padahnya"

Kau,
MAAFKAN AKU ! Aku belum sedia.

Bermula hari tanpa dia.

3 hari yang menyakitkan bagi aku. 3 hari tanpa dia amat menyeksakan. Dia terpaksa pergi camp. Sumpah aku cakap,aku terlampau rindu dia. Xde manusia lain yang boleh buat aku sayang sangat sampai macamni. Asyraaf,he's the only one! Tolonglah faham semuanya! Hanya dia dalam hati aku :') . Dia lelaki yang aku akan kahwin satu hari nanti. Dia satu-satunya! Dia segalanya bagi aku. Aku terima dia walau macamana teruk sekali keadaan dia. Cinta aku terhadap dia melebihi segalanya. Maafkan aku,hanya dia :'( . Aku rindu kau Asyraaf :'((

haloo haloo kangaroooo

Harini xde cerita. Weekend balik Klang. Xkeluar pun. Bosan sangatt ni. Rindu Asyraaf lagi pula ishh :/ sayanggnya dye :)

Genting highland.

pergi genting semalam :) seronok gilaaa ! hehe pukul 5 pagi baru sampai rumah. Love you baby.

Hari Raya.

Hari ni hari raya ketiga. rindunyaaa kat boyfriend tersayang tu.hmm cepattla balik cheras.xsabarrr sangat nak jumpa dye.nak cakappp yang orang kat sini terlampau rindu dye.

Its for you.

Okay,ever since I was born I've never met someone like you.

You're one of the mysterious man in the world. Okay,by the word 'world' it shows that how weird you are to me!!

Knowing you is the best new thing happened cus you inspired me :)

We belong to one group for Applied Anatomy class and you can imagine how shit it was for me to be with you -.- (SORRY!The feel was before I knew you) .

I'd set in my mind that sooner or later you and I will be talking to each other.

And yet,we still not 'hello' each other. The conversation only start when the time I ask Jessica about the location of Radius and Ulna. Then you start teach me about Fibia,Femula and all those lower limb bone.Thanks to you cus always remind me this part "Ingat ye kalau Tibia tu tulang yang tebal sebab nama dye TIBIA so TEBAL" . It still stick in my mind.

Applied anatomy class dismiss and we met at class. By the time we meet we again act like a stranger.

Like I dont know you and it same goes to you. Few days after I went to Jusco and I saw you :).

My heart plays their role by bating whether want to call your name or just ignore you.

So I decided to call you. You saw me but you left me with your sour face. Macam siottt je kau kan? I felt like you're the person who I hate the most!!!

I enter the class by 2pm.I again saw you sitting alone and try to start the conversation with you by asking you to sit next to Alif. You came to me with your sour face(AGAIN!!). Omg you're annoying,boy!!

Lecturer gave us break for a few minutes and I went to outside of the class. Chilling with Alif and Acap. I saw you came near me but that time there's nothing for me to talk to you anymore and I just ignore you. You came and say sorry.It is okay for me it's,nevermind cus we still in a process of knowing each other,rite? I ask you to change your attitude from an annoying person to better and talkative person.You started give me your blog url and your FB name. We chat there and FINALLY,I FEEL SO HAPPY CUS I KNEW YOU'RE CHANGING AND NOW YOU'RE MY FRIEND :))

#Goodjob AFIQ .

I miss him so badly .

Sayangg.

I rindu you sangatsangat! I swear for it.

You pandai jaga hati I, you pandai buat I happy.

Harini you xde dengan I.I taw I yg minta macamni.

I nak kita try jangan contact satu hari sebab I nak tengok sejauh mana you rindu I.

Sumpah rindu you :'(.

Sayangg,thanks msg malam tadi.You cakap I yg terbaik yg you pernah jumpa :) I suka sangatt dengar.

I taw I dah kalahkan semua ex-ex you :) .Yang penting I tahu you xpernah serious dengan semua ex you dulu kecuali I. Thankss sebab bagi I kepercayaan tu sayang.

I happy gak sebab family I semua suka you and diorang kenal you rapattt sangatt. Best kan macamtu? hihi Ilove you baby!!!!

mwahhhhhxx.

Stuck with it.

Rasa macam dah lain je. Saya tahu awak busy tapi kenapa xcari saya?Masuk dewan bukan xboleh pakai fon erm :/ ntahla tapi kenapa awak text mama?Aak suruh mama pujuk saya sebab kononnya awak takut saya merajuk dengan awak.Susah sangat ke awak text saya terus?hmmp :/ sakitnya hati.Sedih :')

Terima Kasihhhh.

Jaga diri sayang.

Awak,sekarang awak dah xdapat nak selalu dengan saya. Saya sedih dan saya tahu awak pun sedih kan? :') tapi xpe. Saya tahu awak xkan lupakan saya dan tinggalkan saya. Saya sayang awak sangat-sangat. Awak satu-satunya teman lelaki saya. Jangan risau okay sayang. Jaga diri kat sana.Jangan lupa janji-janji awak.

#I miss you sayang<3

I-CITY

Karma will hits.

As you are cheating me, do believe in karma :)

#THANKSSS

Pengakhiran yang menggembirakan.

Cerita ni mengisahkan tentang aku dan dia.Seorang lelaki yang aku rasakan sangat bermakna dalam hidup.Walaupun pada dulunya aku rasa dia hanyalah seorang lelaki biasa.Permulaan bermula ketika papa mula rasakan bahawa dia betul-betul sayang dan ikhlas dalam menyayangi aku.Detik itu,aku mula belajar menghargainya sehinggakan aku menolak segala macam orang yang cuba mendekatiku.Aku belajar menyayanginya sepenuh hati.Terima kasih yang xterhingga kepada mama dan papa kerana sentiasa menasihati aku agar sentiasa bersamanya.Ya Allah,jika benar dia jodohku,janganlah engkau menariknya dan membiarkan dia jauh dariku.Jauhkanlah kami dari segala kesulitan dan sucikanlah cinta kami serta redhailah perhubungan ini.Amin :')

IloveyouAsyraaf<3

sekarang.

sekarang aku ada someone yang aku betul-betul sayang.
Asyraaf,thanks sebab kau memang dengan aku dari dulu lagi.
Kawan-kawan,thanks jugak sebab happykan hidup-hidup aku yang akan datang.

And untuk kau,
Aku xperlu pun kau lah perempuan :)
sampai mana je dengan korang tu kan.
happylah k? :)
byeeee.

ICT CLASS.

boringg ! bersama ALIF :)

kat sini,

best sangat sangat ! aku dapat kawan yang bestt, dapat life yang teratur.
ni masa depan aku. aku try hard nak berjaya.
memang susah.aku tawu tu :(
nak xnak aku kena teruskan kan? kalau x sampai bila nak berjaya!
aku ada kawan2 yang buat aku happy selalu.
housemate aku,classmate aku.
thanks for everything !! :)

masterskill.

aku rindu kau orang :'(
hanaa and bella .
rindu sangat sangat! sumpah weh.
korang kawan terbaik aku

i know someone who cherish my day .

pergi MID. jumpa kawan-kawan.
yeahh,i miss em like crazy. At last jumpa Mazni after dah lama xjumpa!
Ikan,Eyda,Puiteng,Is,Afiq and Aizat.
besttt sangattt :)
jumpa mula-mula main bowling haha Aizat menang! ceytt padahal dye paling xterror hehe.
Tapi heran Is yang mula-mula paling terror boleh kalah kat tangan aku :P
hebattt en Erna ehemm :)
Tapi Entry ni sebenranya bukan nak cerita pasal ni, its actually nak cerita pasal seseorang.
I mean dye lebih dari kawan baik.
Dye susah nak jangka. Perangai dye yang kadang-kadang aku sendiri tak boleh nak faham.
Dye buat something without bagi any hint to others.
Macam tadi, dye bagi aku barang. Aku malu nak tanya apa ada dalam tu so aku biar je.
Kat bowling baru aku beranikan diri bukak hehe and guess what!
Aku dapat baju :) Its a nice T-shirt sebab colour dye cantik! I likee it thanksssss :)
lepastu dalam bag tu sebenarnya ada benda lain. Ada suratt..
ermm, dye bagi aku surat. Aku pun bukak and baca.
Its really touch my feeling! sangat sangat sangat hmm macam dalam kandungan surat tu jugak, ada perkataan *sangatsangatsangat* kan? :)
Weh, aku nak kau taw yang aku hargai sangatsangat kau buat aku macamni.
Aku taw aku xboleh dengan kau and kau pun tawu kan?
Tapi aku bersyukur sangat sebab kau terima aku dalam apa keadaan and apa hubungan pun.
Thnakss, aku janji apa yang kau nak aku janji uh and thanks sebab anggap aku ni 'the chosen one'

ha ha ha

like I give a damn about it , huh? :)

dear asyraaf..

thank you for today ! even kau memang suka sesatkan aku haha tapi still happy :) . i ingat you tawu dah jalan g sunway sebab kan dah pergi haritu tapi kemain agy you haha sampai airport subang u bawak i ! gilo :)
you mean a lot to me and im officially LOVES you<3
thanks for the 3pages letter HEHE

abang..

you know how much you mean to me since you came into my life? i still remembered our first chating.we lost contact soon after and past 3days, i saw you! and that is our first time meet :') . i can feel the loves for you. i love you :'( i love you ABANG ! i wish i can tell you who am i for you.

dear bestieessss !

i love both of you .

school's life .

i missed so much :)

clairvoyance.

'easy come, easy go' thats what bruno mars said.
for me, friends are the one who can seriously been describe by what him said.
I met friends who I can put my trusted on.
but they've left me for about 3 months ago.
we made a promised and I guess, im the one who broke it.
its like in a short time,i've lost something that I could never found again.
they'r my miracles gift from god to me.
and now, they'r gone like 1000 miles away far from me and Im seriously got no ideas about it and dont know how to chase them back.
where's my fault and why things have to be like this.
but I knew they are happy together yet.
and I honestly happy for them as i could stalk them from far :')
thank you for cherish my school's life dear syud,eiyz,sara,aishah,eyda,eyka,mimi,miza,nik..
my journey have'nt stop til there..
now i found mazni,syila,memey,rina,izatti,yana,wahida,eyda,qilah..
they rock my life in NS.
without them NS is nothing for me and because of them, its hard to left NS.
im strongly into them and i hope our friendship would be last longer.
they care about my feelings and they honestly appreciate me as who i am.
thank you for that :')
not to be forgotten, god sends me a new bestfriends with a diff gender.
they are seriously two in a million >.<
his named is helmi and aizat .
ilove both of you, no doubt !
I know I will found a new one after I go for my further study.
but whatever it is,they are still the best thing in my life.
so much nice words to describes them because they were SO DAMN AMAZING.
thanks for the teaches and let me know and feel about whats 'the meaning of friends' are.

love,
erna

yanaaaa !

I LOVE YOU<3

give me the strength

today,
im going out with my dear lovely friends.
i missed my yana like so fucking much.
met her is the best medic ever :)
we played ice skating.
i saw abang izzat and i was like OH MY GOD at last i can see him live infront of my face.
i really wanna hug him cus i know he's my own brother and why cant i do it !
but hell-yeah he dont even know who am i for him :'(
he mean a lot to me and i can imagine how's life gonna be if he knows all the fact.
i can feel the love for him.
Ya Allah,please? make him knows who am i for him.
IM HER SISTER !
im waiting to for the moment..

aizat hanafi

we just being such a bestfriend after NS.
he helped me a lot by cheering up my day after been fucked up.
for the first time in my life, i had a 'boy' bestfriend :)
we'r actually not too close in camp and we'r only knew each other a week before NS's over.
he's asyraaf bestfriend and he's mine too now :)
you'r damn amazing.
thank you for being such a GOOD FRIEND !!

GMI

you'r the reason !
you made my day --'
and because of you, we'r fighting and guess,i hate you fuckin much!
S T U P I D !!

titiwangsaaaa ,

harini keluar dengan family.
mula-mula pegi Uitm .
kat situ jumpa kawan baik :)
raje,aizat,helmi,quyah,nik..
damn rindu gilaa !
lagi lagi aizat hehe. miss him alot dear besttie!
pastu pegy tasik titiwangsa. besttt :)
dah penat uh pegy makan rawsha castle then pegy mid!
then balikkk ,penatt sangatt!
rindu asyraaf sangatsangatsangatttt! <3
i love you gilaa . bye

sunway piramid, AEON bukit tinggi.

dear asyraaf,
i wonder how you tackle my heart til i fall for you.
its hard to flashback our first time meeting cus i dont even remember how does it start.
but we spent our moment much in camp.
i miss that moment like so seriously!!

today,
kita keluar, and this is our second meet up since out from camp.
haritu pergi mid valley and harini you drive me pergi sunway and AEON.
i xtaw macamana i boleh sayanggg dekat you sampai macamni sekali.
bagi i,u orang paling layak jadi boyf i kalau nak dibandingkan dengan budak2 kat kem yang suka i tu.
you'r the besttt!
for one month and 5 days kita couple, setiap hari you happykan i.
xpernah sehari pun u bagi i sakit hati.
kalau pernah pun, bila i marah you cakap you nak berubah and yess! you betul betul berubah..
i sayang you banyaknya macam i sayang diri i.
maybe you xnampak sebab i xtaaw macamana nak tunjuk.
harini,
i buat salah dekat you.
i minx maaf! i taw salah i.
i rasa bersalah sangat sangat kat you sekarang ni.
sebab i, you jadi xhappy.. i taw you jeles and i xmarah langsung kalau u jeles.
you marah i, sambil drive you buat muka..you bawak laju!
i suruh perlahan pun u laju jugak.
i nak nangis dah :( i taw i salah..tapi you janganlah macamtuh!!
sekarang ni, i nak you taw yang i betul betul sayang you!
tolonglah percaya i kali ni je :'(

i missed convent

dear maisara, thanks sebab cakap kitorang bestt.
rindunyaaaa kat convent. rindu sangatsangat!
sara da jadi senior kan tahun ni haha bestt lah tu :)
take care anyway.
byeee

hes the reason

because of you, i've been away from him.
because of you,my heart beat damn fast.
because of you,i stayed at night just for listen your guitar song.
i miss our moment damn badly.
i promised not to break our promises.
i promised that only you in my heart and no other boys.
i promised that i will always make you laugh.
im the princess and you are the prince.
i love you for the person who you became.

its been so long .

lama gila aku xupdate blog. sumpah malasss ! hmm, dah bape hari balik dari PLKN.
rindu yang teramat kat sana. rindu kawan-kawan and rindu semua kat sanaaa! :(
kalaulah masa boleh undur balik,kan best?
xde cerita baru pun pasal aku. sekarang ni aku dengan asyraaf.
kitorang couple on 20 feb 2011.
semalam cukup sebulan :)
dye stay bangi,so memang susah nak jumpa.
actually xdela susah mana sebab dye bole je drive dtg sini hari-hari.
aku je xnak..
jumpa hari-hari buat apa hehe .
okaylah , xde nak cerita apa.
nanti update lagi kbye :)


p/s : Muhammad Asyraaf bin Draman,
I LOVE YOU <3

PLKN.

heyy , im back ! cuti sem til tis sunday.
tapy aku tambah cuty 1 hari.
PLKN bestt. sumpah best!
dapat ramai kawan and macam2 agy kat sana.
kawan satu dorm aku memang best.
rindu dorang sangat2!
thanks sebab dapat jumpa dorang :)
nanty cerita lagy k?
penat ni.